Things that make me so sad.

So, I'm super bored in Speech class and felt like blogging. I hope you care to read the whole thing.
So, to start off...it hasn't hit me yet that we have lost the great Josh Ackerman. You know, he was something else. He had his life planned out he was taking himself somewhere. I can remember times where that boy has made me laugh and laughed at me and I can still see him posted up against the lockers in the hall way. I think he is a really great guy, but I want to share something. [They] say don't ever leave someone in words of hate because you really never know if you'll ever see them again. Well, as for Josh I just want to apologize to everybody, because my last words to him weren't the nicest, and now I'll never see him again and it hurts so bad. I regret it very much and I hope he knows he is loved so very much and missed more than words can ever begin to explain. He actually has done somethings for me that I appreciate and I haven't showed him and now it's too late. I still want to thank him. Josh was the boy people got up for in the morning. He was the cool kid that didn't try so hard. He was very sweet and had so much potential. Josh was super smart. I'm very proud of things he has accomplished. Josh has done so well. Missing him won't bring him back and I want to be happy that he's in a better place, but I'm so mad. He had so much going for him and could have succeeded in so many ways, but now he's not going to get to see all that. I hate that!! It pisses me off more than anything in the world. However, I found out he's an organ doner. While his life may not have been saved, he one day will save the life of another. Just one more reason to be ever so proud of that boy. It's so hard having to force myself into believing God has taken him now, but I believe he knows we still love him the same and we'll miss him so much. Josh, I'm very proud of you and who you were becoming. You surprised us in many ways. You worked, took care of school, and made time to have fun. You tackled the world and all it's obstacles and you were strong enough to handle it. We're going to miss you so much. I know you dont' know this because I didn't get to tell you, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being mad at you and I'm sorry I didn't apologize sooner, but just know you're still the amazing person you've always been. I think you're beautiful inside and out. I can't wait to see you soon. With more love than you could know. - Britni.

*everybody loves and misses you Josh.* * Don't worry we'll help you look out for your family. I bet they're just as strong as you and I know they miss you. They love you, we all do. You're a great son, brother, friend, cousin, uncle and just everything.*

There is no second reason. :(